Tired

Tired... of trying too hard.

殘廢

was watching the mtv for the song 殘廢 by 吳克群.

few of the sentences spoke of how i used to feel.

"在愛裡殘廢

　 非弄得傷痕累累
　 累到我無力再追
　 最怕妳突然要挽回
　 回到了原點

原點卻又像終點
　 然後 多痛一遍"

no answers

everytime when she looks me up for something, and i would relate it to people who know; they all ask the same thing:"why does she look you up to ask things? aren't there others to ask too?"

i know she could have asked others, maybe she did.

but i don't have answers to the first question. only she'll know.

but anyway, someone is leaving, and someone feels a loss.

hope he would get over it soon.

things will always be ok.

Man's Search for Meaning...

"He who has a why to live can bear almost any how." ~ Nietzsche

Risks in Life

~~ “To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.”

where?

what happens when there's so much bottled inside, and no one to spill to?

Wrong?

Why does things you've already let go and let past still come back.

still haunts you.

still affects you.

haven't everything already run its natural course?

or is running its natural course?

what have i done wrong.

life. and the way i want it to be.

Sometimes...

sometimes...

i don't know what i'm doing.

i don't know why i'm doing what i'm doing.

i don't know what i need, what i want.

i don't know why i search for answers.

i don't know why i even think about all these questions.